there are so many things that i wanted to tell people. i just don't want to betray anyone. i don't want other people to hate someone because i spoke of my suspicions. i could ask that person directly of my doubts about him. however, if he lies, then i would make him lie. he would not have to if i didn't bring it up.

i'm affected. me and my friends are. but what can i do? do i really have to do anything about it? if i don't act, people will see indifference. i think that's when you lose close friends. i'll be the ever distant lengkyx. the one who's birthday had to be advertised by her brother behind her back.

so i guess that's what this journal really is for.
oops. i think i said that in another entry. oh well.

i feel better already.